Seeking Praise And Approval…The Desire For Validation.

It’s because Charlie knows you’re always learning. We’re all always learning. The person who doesn’t believe you are not always learning is the biggest fool of them all.

Surely Charlie’s, or even the rest of the band’s “added recognition” not being sought out is automatically gained by the crowd reception at gigs. It is why you guys do what you do too, right? The playing live element? Would you still be slogging away 40+ years later if no one turned up? If no crowds were there to give rousing receptions?

Yes, the ‘hard yards’ are done quietly, without fuss. Of course. But all the elements converge. You may not outwardly look to seek praise or recognition, but without some of it along the way, what other drive is there to keep going? Honestly?

Also within Jim’s latest post was a link to a podcast titled ‘It Takes What It Takes’ – it’s an episode of a series called The Daily Stoic – a compendium to daily email meditations from “DailyStoic.com”. I looked at all the rest of the episodes to see what subjects/topics were being looked at.

Obviously certain titles caught my eye, “You Have To Be Kind To Yourself”, and “Do It Because It’s Right. Not So They’ll Like You”. Yeah…that titled SCREAMED out at me! One – as one I need to employ, two – that this is definitely something Jim himself employs!

One can only assume the mister is subscribed both to the podcast and daily emails? He does seem to like to absorb aspects of philosophy, making passing references to things like The Art of War, Bhagavad Gita, and “Syd Arthur” (sorry, had to have a joke). And he recently quoted Marcus Aurelius in a post.

I can see myself taking a listen to some of these podcast episodes.

Does He Like It?

I want to ask Jim a question. I haven’t really had a question to ask him for ages. I used to be asking him things all the time – over exuberant with enthusiasm, wanting to learn, soak up and absorb all things SM as much as possible. And if I had a question, well who better to ask than Jim himself. Charlie doesn’t really ‘do’ social media anyway and mostly my enquiries would be lyrics based or be something that Jim would be more inclined to answer.

In the past I’d have absolutely NO hesitation in going to the Simple Minds Official Facebook page and posing the question on the visitor wall. Back then when I liked the FB page and started following them, Jim would engage a lot. Reply to people on the visitor wall if they shared something interesting, etc. It very rarely happens now, and the wall is all but lifeless.

And well, I have promised Maris Piper (surprised he didn’t call himself King Edward, or “Charlotte”, or Desiree) that I won’t be posting to the wall any more – and a promise is a promise! And well, if I couldn’t even have a bit of flippant fun and ask Jim if he would collect me from the airport with a doughnut without it being deleted – who knows whether a genuine question would even be allowed these days?

I’m not gonna chance it!

I just heard Brian Eno’s Baby’s On Fire recently playing on the radio and the thought just entered my head instantly of Jim’s altering of the lyrics in I Travel and I was suddenly curious as to whether he liked the song. So…that would have been the question…does he actually like the song Baby’s On Fire? Was it what prompted the lyric change…that he liked it? Or did he feel it was a little more cryptic to have that as the lyric rather than simply saying “Brian Eno”?

Like other questions I have posed to him in the recent past (SEMI-MONDE, ANYONE?!), an answer will never be forthcoming – unless I remember to ask at the meet and greet in Bordeaux. Pfffft! This I doubt. It isn’t even that important anyway. I’ll live without ever knowing…

But I miss being curious, quizzing him, and on the odd occasion getting a wonderful response.

Oh, halcyon days!
“Nothing lasts forever” – J Kerr.

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My Moonage Daydream…

I have been working hard to try and get back to GOOD art. Get used to the changes of my main art app that I hadn’t been able to use for several weeks. The combination of just…losing my “muse” and the overhaul of my main art app just had me artistically floundering!

Other things too. Yeah.

Anyway, this is the first one in months I’ve looked at and gone “Yep! That’s good!”

I wasn’t going to put the Bowie lyrics to it. In my head I just had the word “celestial” swimming round. Jim…a celestial being. I’ll sound a complete crackpot…but I don’t fucking care. For many Bowie himself is – but for me, it’s Jim – the most beautiful man I have ever seen. And I sssoooo get how MANY people view David that way. There’s no way to deny it. I see it too.

In the final moments “press your space face close to mine, love” came into my head. So how could I NOT apply those words? Jim and David just mean the world to me. And the link is there with “space face”. It’s my “go to” Simple Minds song when I really need to be uplifted. It helps me more than any other.

But…I won’t lie. Lately I have felt alone. Those words “I’ll be there, you’re not alone” at the beginning of 2016 were a LIFELINE!

I’m clawing my way out again. I’m fighting. Finding my way through it. I always do. I get really scared that one day I might not be able to. There was a time, many years back, when it seemed like I never would.

Anyway. Yesterday (as it is now Sunday) was a good day.

P.S. The shape of his mouth is the thing that made this whole piece for me. I find the shape of his mouth DIVINE!

If you ever visit this blog, Jim…I always worry you think me the silliest, most deluded twerp on the face of the earth – but I’m just human. And you’re beautiful.

Almost The Kind Of Post I Miss

Some poetry. Inner thoughts. Something beyond the mere plug of a gig, a product. Of course, that needs to be done, I guess.

But there is that human touch I was so starting to miss.

The end message seems to be “buck up, kid. Nothing lasts forever.”

Yeah. Don’t remind me. And don’t remind you are not one for sentiment much. Yet, you are.

And of course you have reminded me that I am wallowing. Which I try not to do. For ultimately, the only person who can make me happy, who can “cure my ills” is me.

Oh, but you helped. You helped immeasurably. And I freely admit I grew addicted.

You were medicine. A daily fix. Much like your daily walk is a therapeutic drug… your posts were to me. And… if there was word from you directly? A response? A reply to me? Such an elixir! The day was made. The smile barely leaving my face. “She grinned like a Cheshire cat.”

I kidded myself that moving here I’d take almost daily Clyde walks. Since my return from Oz, I’ve been down to the Clyde a solitary time. Crossed it several other times though… and it always brings that same Cheshire smile – be it ever so briefly.

The other thing I have loved here – to do with water… the sound of the rain on my bedroom windows. There’s a strange kind of comfort…

Minds Music Monday – Silent Kiss

Yesterday saw the second anniversary of the release of Walk Between Worlds.

Of course it was the day that Jim and Charlie appeared at the HMV in Argyle Street for an album signing. I was so, sooo nervous! Lol. Silly, really, as I had met them both before already, but the more it goes on – my involvement in the fanbase, how much more in love with the band (Jim!) and the music I become, the less and less confident I am.

It all means too much, and I feel my eyes already beginning to sting with tears just thinking about what it all means to me.

But, hey. Never mind. All good things must come to an end.

I cringe at the memory of placing that bag of sherbet straws in front of Jim. Just me and my silliness. Just trying to deflect what was really going on inside my head which was me standing there gawping at this beautiful man and being struck dumb.

Anyway…as yesterday was the second anniversary of the album’s release, for MMM, I am sharing my favourite track on the deluxe version of the album. I still think it is a crime this song was not included on the standard version of the album.

It is beautiful…