May contain a heavy dose of Jim Kerr
Have been contemplating monetising my blog…just to help offset the things I do. I mean, the memorabilia I buy is not just solely for me. I buy them to scan and share (when it’s magazines, clippings and photos). Perhaps I should rethink the Etsy shop? Take away all the lyric content from the art that…
I feel so awful…not even the usual therapy is helping…
My friend Claudia shared this meme on her Facebook timeline earlier. I replied to her saying “I want this to be true, but I am not convinced”. I went on to say…”Still…you only lose by NOT doing it…so what is there to lose? (Other than maybe some self-respect? Lol) This is me…every day…when I’ve done…
I end up doing one or two of these silly Facebook personality type quiz things every day. Usually just for a bit of fun. Nothing serious at all. It’s all bunkum anyway…they just data scrape your page. But, this one today…well, it had a point…and seemed to read me quite well. Apart from the fact…
And that’s the only bit you got right! The rest of it? Complete and utter horse twaddle! “You are strong and can bear the burden on your shoulders”. Oh, really? I’m as strong as a kitten in a hurricane! “You’re an admirable woman who has everything under control.” Sure! What I have “under control” is…
When you delude yourself that you may ACTUALLY be good at something, but in actual fact you are shit. You have always been shit (and in your heart of hearts you knew it all along) and you always will be shit. That.
I just want to make pretty pictures with Jim Kerr in them…but today has been too horrendous even for the one thing that usually makes me feel good. I’ve not been able to work on ANY art today. No sketching. No painting. No digital work. Nada. Tomorrow’s another day. Goodnight x
I don’t want to go there again. I am trying so desparately to claw my way out. I remember all too vividly just how utterly worthless and helpless I felt. I absolutely questioned EVERYTHING. Not just why I existed…but why we all existed as humans. And I could never come up with a plausible answer….
I posted this on the SMO Facebook visitor wall, so I may as well add it here too. ________________________________________________________ Jim…I just need to write again about Speed Your Love To Me on the Acoustic vinyl.It is the most beautiful, tender, sweet, gorgeous thing I’ve heard since…well, Spirited Away, probably. And like Spirited Away, I just…
I keep wanting to ask what he thinks of the rest of Blackstar. He might not have even had the chance to listen to it yet…I wonder… I’ve done it now anyway. God help me…