Dream Within A Dream

I had a mix of dreams this morning. Some were a little anxiety inducing. Others were just about all I dream of every day of my life.

I was sitting in a rather fantoosh looking kitchen…a kind of breakfast bar area of this kitchen. So…not in my house this place. I guess I was in his house/apartment? Or maybe it’s part of the hotel? There’s maybe some clue as to who my guest was (or more that I was HIS guest). Yes! I was dreaming that I was hanging out with Jim. Already I could just stop here and just be happy with this. That I was with him, being in his company.

I should have known INSTANTLY it was a dream because this will NEVER HAPPEN in real life. I feel as though I am the very LAST PERSON he’d ever want to spend time with, but in the dream he was happy. Relaxed and very smiley. And not the usual slightly arrogant and rather snidey Jim that I am faced with whenever I am in his presence. This time he was just happy to have me there with him and of course I was over the moon being there, and more relaxed than usual because I felt he was genuinely happy for me to be there with him.

And we were just sitting about talking.

It was a lovely sunny morning and the sunlight was streaming in. Some bits of the dream are a little sketchy. I’m not sure exactly what we had been talking about, or how we got to this subject but we were – well, he was initially – talking about Mel. He was reminiscing and being quite nostalgic. Saying how he had enjoyed having Mel working on Lostboy and that the tour was great. Then he said to me “I dreamed of him last night and when I opened my phone up this morning, his phone number appeared first.”

At this point in the dream I freaked out a bit because as I went on to tell Jim…. “OMG! That is really freaky! A similar thing happened to me last night. I was dreaming of Mel also and when I opened my phone this morning, the first thing I see is a photo of him!”

We both sat there smiling away in a strange kind of disbelief. Both a little astounded by our similar dreams. Just both of us kind of looking at each other a tad gobsmacked.

“You need to call him, Jim”, I say to him. “Do you talk to all the bands you’re fans of like this?”, he says back to me. “Lol, no”, I retort.

And then the dream ended. It was just very surreal and very lovely and I wish for all the world it was real. For all the world that Jim would actually WANT to sit around in a kitchen and just chat away with me and spend time with me. I honestly can’t think of anything more wonderful. Or anything that I want more in this world.

As soon as I “wakened up”, I started to hear the chords to this, because I had just experienced a “dream within a dream”….

It was Mel’s birthday yesterday….

Minds Music Monday – What Goes On – Lostboy! AKA Jim Kerr

This week we have an imposter for MMM. Over the weekend I was “VJing” (for want of a better term) over on the SM fan group that I vaguely help out with from time to time.

We do Playbacks (long before Tim Burgess came along with his lockdown inspired “listening parties”). Head honcho of the group, G Man, would conduct playbacks. A bunch of fans meet at the group at a specified date and time and listen to a playlist of SM songs simultaneously and just…comment along with thoughts and memories about the tracks playing. All great fun.

Except…when I hosted a couple a few months back! Lol. It was just prior to lockdown, I think. Anyway I did a couple and it scared the bejaysus out of me. I found it INCREDIBLY stressful but…a little bit fun. Despite not being able to enjoy them as I had done as someone who just listened in rather than ran the thing! Lol

Anyway, there hadn’t been one for a while and I suppose I wanted to see if it was as stressful as I remembered it feeling. Short answer? Yes and no. The prep is stressful! And I now realise from after this weekend….I need to give myself much more time to prep and I need to have all the prep done before I even announce that there is going to be a playback or playbacks on the weekend chosen. That working on it for a couple of hours a day until all the playlist links, my intros to them, any interesting info I want to share about what’s being played, etc, etc is all sorted. That will lessen a lot of stress attached, because once the thing is under way…once you’ve put that first track out and have the playback going – then it’s fun!

So, this weekend the playbacks had come via a group member suggestion of having the first and last track of each album as the list.

To end the second part of the playback and have it run to a similar time to the first part, I chose a couple of SM covers at the end of the list. Rockin’ In The Free World by Neil Young (which was on the Searching For The Lostboys album bonus that was released with Graffiti Soul) and then All Tomorrow’s Parties (from Neon Lights – which is now just about my favourite Simple Minds cover of all).

I think there is something about SM covering Lou Reed/Velvet Underground songs that gives them more resonance, makes them better, gives them more feeling, more emotion…be it melancholia or joy – or even a mix of both. They just seem to give them…more. Perhaps it is down to Jim’s “hero worship” of Lou? I’m not sure. But the best SM covers seem to be Lou Reed penned compositions.

I finished yesterdays playback with two encores. Them performing Street Hassle live at the Roskilde festival in 1983 and then an early live version of White Light/White Heat from 1979.

So, here we are. Another Lou Reed cover. This time from when Jim branched out on his tod as Lostboy! He’s a bit of an imposter this Lostboy! but there’s an SM connection there, I think. I think the link is Jim Kerr…. *pondering face – rubs chin* 🤔😜

The title seemed relevant for me too. I mean…what the fuck DOES go on in my mind? Lol. Not even sure I know most days! Anyway….after that long-winded fucking intro…enjoy!

Why Lostboy! May Now Forever Be “Missing In Action”

It’s coming up to 9 years since Jim Kerr released his first solo album, under the moniker “Lostboy! AKA”. And it appears as if it will be destined to remain Lostboy’s only solo venture.

There was a promise of more to come for 2011 with a follow up album earmarked. Sadly personal family issues took precedence and a quick follow up was put on the backburner (as was some of the Lostboy electroset tour).

I would seriously love to ask Jim why he thinks the impetus he had and that more prolific period that he found when embarking on the Lostboy! project seemed to fall away, not to be regained (it would seem…well not in as a prolific a state, as he was in SMs early days – on a par with that)? It may be a tough question to answer, as the number one assumption would be the loss of his mum, Irene, playing the largest part of that.

There has been times when he has posted on SMO about the anniversary of the release of Lostboy! AKA and seemed to suggest that he may return. Or at the very least there is still a desire there sometimes to resurrect him.

But Jim has subsequently “stolen” material from Lostboy! for Simple Minds. Kill Or Cure on Big Music is one obvious one – released initially as a Lostboy! track. And last year on the Walk Between Worlds album, Sense Of Discovery was also “reimagined” for Simple Minds.

I do fear poor Lostboy!, with all his drive, passion and enthusiasm (and his potential for proliferation of material) is destined to be a “fly by night”, a “flash in the pan”. To me he held much, much promise. It was a very strong start in 2010.

I don’t get the sense Jim wanted to put him to bed…but he hasn’t really mentioned “The Boy” since last year and the reworking and inclusion of Sense Of Discovery on the WBW album. And he didn’t much register a post for a while before that. Just a fleeting mention, or as I say, and anniversary of album release acknowledgement.

Maybe he is happy to have now “been there, done that” and worn the T-shirt?

Can’t say he never tried in the first place, can oor Jim? (Trying out the solo career.)

I don’t know why…but when I ponder whether Lostboy! will return, I lament that he may never see the light of day again.

Lyric Of The Day – Lostboy!

Lyric of the day

Song: Lostboy

Album: Lostboy! A.K.A Jim Kerr

Year of release: 2010

Words: Jim Kerr

This song makes me cry. I know it sounds silly, but it’s like he wrote a love song to his younger self! It’s beautiful and nostalgic. For a man who doesn’t like to dabble in nostalgia, he seems to get caught up in it quite a bit! Lol

There are subtley different lyrics printed on the album sleeve –

Never understand you with all those crazy plans,
You lost boy, lost boy.
You’d never try to please with all that energy,
Lost boy, lost boy.

But he DEFINITELY sings “always Julius Caesar” instead of “with all that energy”. It’s certainly more ambiguous – what the hell does he mean by THAT? He was a military man, feeling as though he was marshalling his troops? Beware the Ides of March, Jim? Maybe when he returns to FB, I’ll have to ask. Always love learning. At least I can try asking the man himself :-))

The Lostboy! album has wonderful artwork inside the gatefold. That’s Jim understanding the aesthetics that vinyl records can give. It’s not just an aural experience, but a visual one as well.

Bought this today. Lostboy! aka Jim Kerr on vinyl.

By sheer coincidence, it’s the 5th anniversary of its release, so Jim said in a post on the SM FB wall a short time ago. How amazing for me to buy it today. What are the chances? (as Harry Hill would say. Lol)

Wrote a small novel on the Simple Minds Facebook page earlier. I didn’t get a personal response – but I *did* get a like 🙂 Knowing Jim reads this stuff sometimes is enough.

He’s too lovely! He doesn’t have to do it. Many “artists” wouldn’t. I love him for it. It makes being a Simple Minds fan extra special.