At Least It’s ‘On Topic’….

So…two of my recent posts to the SMO visitor wall get deleted for…whatever reason. Okay. Fair enough.

But this gets to stay? No comeback from Jim? Nae nuthin’?

Well, it’s “on topic”, I suppose.

At least they’ve been allowed to express an opinion…

To each their own.

And Just When You Think He’s Coming Back…

He’s not. And it all falls quiet again.

WHY do I miss this man so much? Why am I so goddamn fucking clingy?!

And why am I going to 11 gigs? And flying to the other end of the world for three of them? And why is March so far away? (It isn’t really…it’s just been a loooooong time since a full gig – November’s Scottish Music Awards was a mere tease!)

And why am I asking all these questions?

Mornings don’t feel the same any more. I’d wake up, I’d check Facebook. I’d look to see what Jim had posted about that morning. He’d always have something interesting to say – as far as I was concerned! Something in the papers might have piqued his interest. Or there’d be a particular anniversary of a musical variety, either Simple Minds related or not. Perhaps a revered musician had sadly passed away. Or…he was back in Sicily … just … any number of things. Or, like the other day, a fan had got in touch and he deemed it worthy of a post, so all the other SM fans would see it.

But it would happen daily. Twice daily for a time (yep…he was a two a day man! Bragger! Lol).

All the fans theorise as to whether it is even Jim posting. I used to be convinced that it was. It came to a point he didn’t even deem to feel it necessary to end things with a “JK” sign-off. Now that sign-off is back.

Maybe he feels he’s done his bit? Kind of feels a little hollow then him highlighting the new breed of fans coming through, like young Paulus. The age of social media is at its strongest now, I think, and Jim now seems to be pulling back. His lips are sealed – click here for a SMO FB post of reference.

I may not be a seven year old (though many could argue I sound like one quite a lot!) but I am a mere five year old in mega fan terms. And it was Jim that absolutely pulled me in further. I’m not wanting it to sound like I was “coerced”. It really isn’t what I’m saying. But for me, that part of it, that public ‘tete a tete’….that connection to Jim directly…it really, really meant something special and precious. Like…he cared. And that you’re kind of…appreciated. Accepted. A part of things. Belong. I dunno.

Perhaps he missed his calling – his true calling as an actor rather than a musician? Perhaps I am utterly blind…had the wool pulled over my eyes and he’s just REALLY good at pretending. I hate thinking this way. Like he’s just actually…false. The way he writes the FB posts…I refuse to believe it. But…he’s a storyteller by trade. Perhaps it never really has been him writing the posts at SMO? Perhaps it was Kevin McCabe? Or some admin bot. Again…I don’t know.

And then I pour all my personal feelings and hang ups on it. It just feels like…something has been lost.

Combine it with my two recent deleted visitor wall posts and I am feeling decidedly ostracised.

Am I making demands? Am I asking too much? Is he just bored with us (me)? Has he always been and it’s just been another successful facade? And now he’s got so bored of the pretence he’s just walked away?

Answers on a postcard…

In the meantime, it’s 46 days to go until Copenhagen. Soundcheck experience. PRETEND YOU’RE HAPPY TO SEE ME, JIM!

😂😂😂😂

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And as you might be able to see, I’ve also lost my muse. Time without an iPad Mini and access to my art apps has exacerbated things. My apologies.

If I was ever any good to begin with.

It Was Just A Silly Joke

Not meant to be taken seriously.

Let me explain.

As I was travelling back home to the UK I posted to the SMO FB visitor wall about having Jim greet me at Glasgow Airport.

I can’t remember what I wrote exactly. I was on the plane at the time and hadn’t slept for some time so I can’t recall exactly how I worded it. But I had joked in the comments of a post written a few days before about him greeting me at the airport.

This post to the visitor wall was a “reminder” – you know “tomorrow, 3pm, be there or be square” kind of thing. Just a silly thing. Light hearted.

So why was it deleted? Who got offended by it? Was it the mention of a certain Glasgow doughnut shop? I don’t work on commission for them!!! Simple Minds have no trouble with me mentioning the band everywhere else… or running this blog as a massive advert for them.

I know I am being oversensitive worrying about why it was removed but I just get miffed about this crap.

It was just starting to feel nice again. Jim was starting to post a bit more and those months of feeling persona non grata were going away… and now this!?

I dunno. Why do I bother?

As petty as a post like that is… you just do it for a bit of fun. When it gets deleted, it feels like a kick in the guts. Like, “Oh FFS, what have I done wrong now?!” Are you just trying to tell me to fuck off? Well… just tell me to fuck off then.

Meh. Never mind, eh?

Let’s just count the days until Copenhagen and delude myself he still likes me. If he ever did.

Practising What I Preach?

I’ve lost my way with this blog, partly due to … someone being much quieter this year, for one. And now my muse has escaped me.

The past several weeks has been all change, on a personal note.

I fly out to Sydney in two weeks time. We move to Glasgow on Friday. And if I don’t have enough with those two things going on, I’m still conscious of the blog just…lagging.

I don’t really have any kind of regular thing happening with it. In the past I’d have something going on, be it Kerrsday Thursday, the Weekend WhirliGIG, the “Why I Love…” special posts, Lyric Of the Day – when the art was happening on a regular basis. There was also some kind of weekly or regular post. I’ve even let my weekly Spotify listening stats (posted under Tweekly FM) slip by at times lately.

So, I might find it a little awkward until the New Year to commit to something fully regularly, I will at least commit to putting a little more life into the blog at least in the next couple of weeks.

As I say, as if I haven’t enough to be getting on with!

I do want this blog to be an interesting thing. I had such plans for it at the beginning of the year. And it really started well with my interviews with Jaine Henderson and Bruce Findlay, and then it kind of fizzled. All the best laid plans, eh?

Let’s see what I can salvage to end 2019 with a bang!
(P.S. He isn’t convinced 👇🏻)