Ah…you know what I was saying in my video(s) yesterday about being mildly gutted if my fan bit is not in the book…well…
Seemingly those who are in it have been receiving emails about it being confirmed that YES – they ARE in the book and that they can see their piece in the book before committing to buying it.
No such email has arrived in my Inbox as yet. I have a sinking feeling!
On top of that, there was something else I had been anticipating happening that didn’t eventuate either.
Today I feel very dejected AND rejected! I don’t need this two days before my birthday! I feel like I’m being kicked while I’m down!
And this was the main reason I grappled about even submitting anything because I KNEW that if I did and my bit didn’t get to be in the book – I’d be gutted. Better to have not bothered was my reckoning. I couldn’t be disappointed about it then. Save myself the heartache.
Silly, I know, but it was the reason behind not putting something in in the first place. Just all those things… I’ve had my five minutes, Jim’s sick to the eye teeth of me, the fans wish I would fuck off and die, I have no idea what to write about, I’m a johnny-come-lately with no real story to tell.
ANYWAY! You just have to keep on keeping on. You just have to keep holding your head up high and just…push on.
COUNT YOUR BLESSINGS!
I was too good for the book! 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂
Perhaps my email just hasn’t arrived yet? Lol. Yeah…
I know. It is what it is. Never mind. I’ll have all the rest of the lovely thing to enjoy. Signed photos. A lanyard that I should have got at Copenhagen on the soundcheck that couldn’t happen! Or at the meet and greets that didn’t take place. An old poster. The certificate of authenticity! Ticket stubs. The fridge magnet! The badge stickers. I wish one of those badge stickers had been the screenshot of Jim on Top Of The Pops in the white jaiket when they were on doing Promised You A Miracle. Lol – I’ve got to take all the small, petty things that make me happy!